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Sunday, January 28, 2018
So Lonely
No one seems to care. I'm reaching out for help and get ignored. Or told I'm wrong for feeling this way. I know I won't do anything stupid, but I also see why someone would. I hate being all alone and just wish someone would listen.
Tuesday, February 21, 2017
Life, or Something.
I need to
vent somewhere so why not here, on the interwebs, where the entire world can
find it, but I know that no one will.
The thing
that I think is the worst is the fact that you were the person I told
EVERYTHING to. And now I don’t. I don’t want to. And yet I do. It’s become such
a habit to tell you about my day; the funny things, the crazy things, the random
thoughts that just pop into my brain. But now I don’t feel like wasting the
breath. And at the exact same time, I hurt because I effectively have no one to
tell. I don’t feel like going into the whys. I don’t feel like explaining. I
want to move on and get past all of this, but I will never be able to, not completely.
I wish I had
been worth your time. I wish that I had been worth loving. I wish that I hadn’t
believed every sickening lie you told me. I almost wish I could erase the time.
There is only one reason that I wouldn’t and that reason trumps everything and
is even worth all of the pain. I would just like to know what I did. You always
told me I was a good person. If I was such a good person, I would have been
worth the effort. You were always worth the effort to me. My feelings never wavered,
not once. I was committed. I never looked the other direction. I never risked
it. In some ways, I wish I would have walked out the first time I had the
chance. Again, that one reason is why I’m glad I didn’t. But the warning signs
were there years ago. If I had trusted my gut, I wouldn’t be feeling this way
today. I wouldn’t have gone through years and years of lies. I wouldn’t wonder
if I can ever trust again. Can I trust again? Will I ever be able to let my
exterior down again? It’s lonely, living like this. I don’t talk to people
because I always talked to you. Even when I try to reach out, I don’t get a
response. I didn’t purposely do anything wrong, and yet they all seem to side
with you.
Tuesday, March 3, 2015
January and February 2015
So life got crazy busy the past two months. Why? Because I was stage managing a local play! And then it got even crazier when at the last minute, I was in said play. Due holidays and whatnot, we got a later start than would have been ideal, so the last two months have been a blur of lines, prop gathering, and nun costumes (The play was Drinking Habits in which two nuns are secretly keeping their convent afloat by making and selling wine. Things are all fine and dandy until they win a prize and two reporters show up trying to get a story. Hence, the nun costumes). In between that, there was a quick trip for Second Christmas, Birthday and Valentine's Day shenanigans, and a lot of book reading.
It's a little late (okay, a lot late), but here's my overview.
When I have them, I will post a few of the "official" pictures from the show (thanks to a good friend of mine for stepping in and taking pictures for us). And a huge thanks to every single person that supported the show, either by being in it, attending performances, sharing info, and for all of the other things, be it little or large, that helped bring this show to life! You rock!
-Melly
It's a little late (okay, a lot late), but here's my overview.
I met Clifford |
I ate Cake |
We Had Second Christmas |
I tried Duck Pizza (who knew!? So Good!) |
Library Kids are the Best! |
And so are Boyfriends that make great Valentine's Dinners |
I got way too excited I hid backstage and took photos. |
And on the last day of February, I played in the snow! |
Friday, January 2, 2015
December 2014
Well, another year has ended. Like every year, it had it's ups and downs, but all around I'd say it was a pretty good year. Here is a bit of what went on in my life in December.
I lit bags of sand on fire. Trust me, it's prettier than it sounds.
I decorated the tree.
I made homemade chips (delicious)
I made a wreath. Go Cowboys!
I made the cat take selfies.
I opened presents.This one contained a Gilmore Girls shirt. I also got a Harry Potter Snuggie.
I watched the dog play in the snow. Because it's cold and I didn't want to go outside.
I read. Like a crazy person. Though I forgot to count one so this should be 258. I'm insane like this.
Monday, December 1, 2014
November 2014
Can't believe that November has come to a close and that the year is almost over! This next month is going to be busy! I still have 69 books to read to try and meet my reading goal for the year (300 books, not counting picture books) in addition to all of the Christmas prep. Here's to another great month!
I participated in NaNoWriMo.
I saw a great production of James and the Giant Peach (and cheered on my friends that were in said play).
I prepared for the release of The Hobbit.
I made my first ever homemade cranberry sauce. Not only that- I made two different kinds!
I spent time with family.
I decorated for Christmas.
I made stuff.
I tormented the dogs...er tried to get them to pose for a Christmas photo.
I ate sushi with the NaNo team!
Happy Early Holidays!
-Melly
Saturday, November 15, 2014
October 2014
Since I plan on using this blog to sort of keep track of the things that happen in my life, I hope to do a monthly post of the 'of this is what happened' variety. That being said, this is what happened in October.
We got to visit the kiddos.
Someone awesome turned 6!
I listened to some pretty awesome storytellers.
I took pictures of the leaves and other fall-ness.
I took a class on what to do in the event of an active shooter and watched one of my friends take down the "bad guy".
I rode a camel at the local museum's Egypt exhibit.
I decorated for Halloween.
I got photobombed in the best way ever.
I threw the boyfriend a Ninja Turtles birthday party.
Let's see what adentures November will bring!
-Melly
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